jUdGe mE All U wAnT .. jUsT kEeP tHe vErdiCt to yOurSelF !!!!!

Yall! dis is me! I'm a different being
from all of u here! Confused?!Oh well,just listen 2 ma scene..

U look around,u c those faces so sweet
I look around nd i c dem full of deceit!
And on ur sides u c people so happy nd free
From side 2 side its de invisible walls closin in on me..
Your world is white,so pure,so full of delight
Darkness covers mine nd there's no respite..
And do u take out tym 2 smell those flowers en route??
Well!don't raise ur brow! I do dat too! :P

But dang!sum1 comes ur way nd breaks ur trust
nd then sum1 else pushes u wid such a thrust
dat u're lying down nd out on de street
wid every1 else jus walkin away fast on their feet.
U look around nd u're choking now..
u try 2 speak but de words won't come out!
U look at me to c wots up wid ma scene..
I'm not affected! Well dat is ma regular routine!

U're back in ur cocooned,secure li'l world feelin so screwed
All dat really shook u deep down 2 de roots ??!
"Its all good",u say,"Its jus a diffrent ball game"
That's not how it is..u gotta fight back nd not take all dat pain!
U sit 2 write abt it & think "rappin' ain't ma game"
I sit 2 write..screw up..quit..nd den try again.
Dat duznt mean m a f***** rappin' machine!
Yall! This is me! I'm just a different being!

Lost in the ashes of time .....

My phusht poem everrrr ;)

I remember those days and those clear blue skies
Though I never said a word I thought you saw it in my eyes

And I remember that day when you first held my hand
I didn’t show my nervousness but my breathing was scant
As you reached for my hair pin and saw me eye to eye
That was one moment when I thought I would die

Well the pin came off and so could’ve other things
But that was when the door-bell began to ring
* laugh * it was our mums back from the shopping game
And we never got a moment all by ourselves again

Now as I stand here and everything’s gray
This crazy wind just blows my hair away

I never told you how I felt
I had loads of chances till today
I know I’ll have more
But I really don’t know how to say
That I’m caught up in you
And I don’t know how to break away

I guess that’s what I’ll always feel … bereaved
You just went away and though you never said you’d leave

I knew that you were gone never to return
But deep inside of me the fire still burns
My heart screams loudly … I want to wash away this pain
Oh! How I wish it would rain!

To "cell" or not to "cell" is the question!!

 Recently I’ve caught myself rhapsodizing about cell phones with camera. Never have I fantasized anything, or for that matter, anyone more than these wonderful little gadgets!!

The requirements were simple:

1. A minimum 2 MP camera … for the most stunning shots one can take from a cell phone
2. An mp3 playback … for those times when you have this urge to listen to a particular song at that very moment
3. A Bluetooth device and a Bluetooth headset … for obvious reasons!!

So obviously I wanted one and the only way out was to ask mum and dad for it … Dad not being here, mum was the only one I could try my luck on.

Blackmailing has never worked in our household. So armed with a pre-calculated shoe-string budget I decided to approach my “World Bank” with complete honesty … no frills, no nonsense.
The first attempt was a disastrous one … a flat “NO” with no particular reasons was offered for an answer.

Needless to say, I was dejected and disheartened but further attempts continued … as catastrophic as the first one. This silsila continued for a few days while I kept searching for various nokia models … of course mum had no idea about this … I guess she was at peace with me not ranting and raving about a new cell phone.

Now I was stuck between Nokia 6233, 3235, 6265 … I’m not even thinking about the N-series … too far fetched unless your parents regularly feature on page 3!!

So one day we were just quietly sitting and doing nothing in particular ... so i decided to implore mum once again to get me the love of my life ...

me: what a boring day!!
mum: totally!
me: let's do sumthing interesting!!
mum: what do u have in mind??
me: i dunno ... let's try out sum new eating place!!
mum: hmmm
me: or roam on the streets ... listenin to gr8 music ... take sum whacky pics on our way ...
                   * silence *
mum: but the cam's gone for a six!!
                   * more silence *
me: then let's just go out and shop for one .....
                   * if silence cud kill ... this was it!! *
me: tell u wot ... lets get out and luk for sumthin chic ... forget d cam ... we can luk for sumthing which has an integrated camera, mp3 playback ... and bluetooth ofcourse ... so dad and i can share all the whacky stuff we shoot!! i've got some great ideas about .....
mum: * visibly angry * Whatever they are, just don't "cell" them to me!!!!!

Well ... so I guess I can't ask her again now, can I?? So I guess i'll just wait for me to start earning sum bucks next year and then get one ...
damn!! why me God?? why me??

PS: Saw a Sony Ericsson K-750i today ... 3 MP camera ... u think I should give one more shot at asking her??

A morning well spent!! :)

The first day in months when I woke up at 6 in the morn … and for what u ask?? Free downloading of songs and music videos!! Lolz
2 hours of downloading on my dearest comp (which is a very sensitive being) and then hours and hours of pure ecstasy listening to the freshly downloaded stock!! :D
Needless to say how happy I am!!

Anyways, after the downloading I thought I must do something meaningful. But the idiot box is where I got stuck!! Watching Oliver (of Oliver’s Twist) churning out such delectable delicacies on screen made my breakfast of bread and eggs such a bore and uh … well … just repulsive.

So I just downed my “scrumptious” meal somehow and was back to my alma mater (my comp … it has taught me so much including something which no one ever succeeded at teaching me … being patient … for all those times when it hangs and restarts … at a frequency of 5 restarts per 7 minutes!!!!!)

Checking out new music gives me such a high that no one, absolutely no one, can pull me away from my comp!! I can do this forever and ever and ever …

However there is ONE thing which CAN drive me away from anything and that is … DRIVING … just can’t get enough of that!! Mum wanted me to rush to the nearest store to get something urgently and I promptly responded by jumping out of my chair and into the driver’s seat, revving up the engine and roaring off to glory … :)

And then I arrived at the doorstep exactly in 45 min (for a journey that would’ve taken less than 15 min under normal circumstances), pleased and content … *sigh* … of course my mum had feelings otherwise … so I was back to music!!

I feel it in my fingers
I feel it in my toes
Christmas (read love) is all around me
And so the feeling grows

That’s a track from the movie Love, Actually … lovely movie … a must-see … and so is Serendipity.

And so its been 8 hours now since I woke up … and I can hear Sean Paul screaming in my ears Get busy …..

PS: I can’t believe I’ve written so much just about this morn!! Blogging CAN get addictive!! 

Heavens called today … Finally!!

A happy day, today! Got the offer letter of my fist job ever … finally! :D
Had been waiting for more than 2 months now … and then the prayers were finally answered … feels AWESOME!!!!!
Can’t write more than this … it’s one of those moments which are best understood when seen rather than heard or read about!!

The Raconteur ...

“Multistar schema is a combination of star schema and snowflake schema but not advisable to be used.”


This is my first attempt at blogging. I’ve been meaning to do this since the past year but it seems the heavenly bodies were not in favour of this plan materializing!!

I wonder lots of times that what is it that draws people towards blogging in particular... and writing, in general.

Is it the love for formulation of words into sentences or intense feelings which one may want to mitigate in a less violent way (since words too can act like knives!) or simply an exceptionally boring lecture where the droning voice of the professor forces the not-so-sleepy students into thinking deeply about life???!!

“These are some differences between ERP and DWH …”

I have so much to be put down into words yet there’s nothing to write! How ironical! Right now I’m not even attempting to write anything of significance yet the words are just taking shape of sentences.

“Any queries so far?”

Yeah! Loads! Like ... why am I attending this lecture on this bright sunny Saturday with 14 other students?? Was it destined long back or just a chance of fate that brought me here instead of at the movies?? This I do not know … and never will!

“I have lots in store for you today but the attendance seems to be low.”

Yeah true! Hence I’ve made plans today to roam around the city streets with a friend.
Guess we’ll just rove around and do some street shopping. Should be fun!

“People don’t seem to be interested. Maybe I’ll stop here for today.”

About time! Gotta break off for now.
The raconteur has places to visit, people to meet, stories to tell … the streets await her…